For those of you who have followed this blog, received an email, or maybe have wondered about some of my Facebook updates, I will finally let the proverbial cat out of the bag of what's been going on in my world. If you don't know what I'm talking about, that's OK...I think I write more for my sanity and my desire to be more than just a hectic mom worrying about shoelaces and such!
In mid October, I discovered blood coming from my right breast. Over 15 years ago, my doctor told me that if I ever discovered that, he wanted me to be seen right away. We have a strong family history of breast cancer and everything has been fine...till then. I began being seen and having tests done and before our family vacation to Florida, the report came back that there was a high suspicious of intraductal malignancy. Ok, here we go. Not knowing what it all meant, we went on vacation and I breathed for a week. Putting it behind and making a choice to not let the fear paralyze me. But let's be honest. I was freaked. I looked at friends and family and my kids so intently. So preciously. And my God more honestly. More authentically. And it has been good.
Today, I got to see my surgeon. This was the appointment I had been waiting for. I walked into it knowing I may have quite a journey ahead of me. She came in, this pretty, stylish woman who looked at me, my tests and gave me a gift. She told me that the highly suspicious concern of cancer may have been premature. She wasn't sure why the report came back that way. She wants to do a biopsy in a couple of weeks and we'll know more. But I wish I could describe the reassurance she gave me. I left the office and my mom began talking about something and all I could do behind the wheel was...breathe.... then another big breath. Then another. My eyes filled as I never realized I had been holding my breath for over a month. My mom treated me to lemon loaf and a Venti passion fruit tea from Starbucks and my world opened up to me. The sky seemed brighter. My kids funnier. Each moment precious. And I am thankful. I feel like a prisoner released after being falsely imprisoned. Now, we are not completely over. The biopsy may still show some cells. But today, I am thankful. For so many things. I am enjoying this moment of reassurance and peace. God has been and will be faithful through all... but I'm so glad I'm right where I am now.
If you ever think of me, please pray for this upcoming biopsy. I will be glad to return the favor of prayer and friendship back to you.
Love to all... and Merry, Merry Christmas!
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PRAISE GOD!!! I'm teary-eyed as I read this update, thanking God for this reminder that you are in the shadow of His wings. I will continue to pray, dear Friend! XO
Through tears, heart ache, and pridefulness about God's promises shown through your faith, I want to say, I love you! I love you honesty, faith, and who God made you to be. I will be on my knees for your health and your family! May HE reveal HIMSELF to you daily while you wait.
You are always in our prayers. We love you and your family!
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